I've lost my spark. I've lost my edge. I'm no longer happy.
I just realised this now. A few months ago, life was great and I was genuinely happy. It's such a great feeling to have, you can literally feel it in your stomach. And those months I spent happy were by far some of the funnest times.
But in the last month and a bit, the happiness has faded. I did notice it, but I thought "it's just a mood, it'll come back." Unfortunately, it hasn't yet.
I don't know what's missing in my life, or even what brings me happiness. It was just there and I snatched it. In recent weeks, I've even found myself saying "okay, try and be happy" which kinda depresses me because I used to not have to try, I just was.
Wait a minute, I've got it! I've been unhappy ever since I stopped attending 12two! 12two is the young adults service at my church. I haven't been able to go because work began rostering me on Sunday nights and I need the money.
Yep, I'm convinced. The reason I am no longer happy is because I'm missing God. BLAH NEED TO GO TO CHURCH =(
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But God is everywhere! Maybe you're missing the social interaction...
Haha.. why bother going back and changing the blog post so it makes sense the whole way through when you can just have an epiphany halfway?
Can't you organise to work another night?
Ahhh, it's amazing how when we lose our connection with God we seem to find ourselves lost in every way.
I'm glad you realised what's missing in your life.
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